So.. It's a constant struggle. You could,but you don't want to. So you watch me struggle.

Good,good.

It's fine.

Wanna know a secret wish of mine?

I wish I can travel with him,and take pictures along rustic looking streets in Europe. I wanna be the girl in the artistic photo,walking down the street in sunrise/sunset. I like the sun shining on us,as we take a photo of our back view kissing each other. I wanna take a photo,of us sitting under a shady tree,on the plains and reading a book. We can drink tea,and you your coffee. Lots of laughter as we discuss topics,or while I tease you. Doesn't that sound so blissful? I wish I could do that with someone I love,and loves me with all his heart.

Photos,photos,photos.
Why?
What do we call ourselves?
We are...
Photographers.
:)

As mentioned,the longer you wait,the harder you want to let go.

But also,our relationship is still quite new. Hard to tell whether it's for long or not.

Should I wait without trying or quickly bail out before getting hurt?

Elle ou moi? Certainement l'un doit aller,Il n'y a pas de troisième option

Now that we've spoken,I felt that all the more I want him in my life. As a partner. The only obstacle is his mom,giving such perssimism about the future,so absolute that I don't know if we can hold out.

If I'm that hard on it,I would delete every single thing about him and block him off everything.

Just like all the previous ones. And take a good long break for myself.

But today,is finally the day that I actually mention it. But perhaps for the better of ourselves,would this be the right

CHOICE?

Once again,I begin to question myself if he is the right one.
The one that I found to share my life with.

It's about 2 hours before I head off to school to collect my results.

I'm not exactly nervous,just waiting. I just hate waiting. I do wonder about my results but really,I'm not anxious. Just waiting. I wish time can just pass faster. Sleeping is the best way but I can't get back to sleep. It had been a restless night and I kept waking up in the middle of the night for God knows what reason. Oh wells. Just a very short entry here. Time pass so slow.