HONESTLY.

What do you want me to say?

We have very different views and stand on this. You tell me that you have always been like this and will always be like this. Then now,let me honestly tell you this too. I have always been and will always be like this. Call me wilful,but if things are gonna go my way then I foresee no quarrels for sure. Especially about this issue. It's a very major thing on my side,I don't like to hide things and I get fucking tired if I have to specially hide anything. For awhile,yeah,fine. For in the long run,no thanks. You can say byebye.

You know me,the harder you press,the more I rebel. The more I dislike it,the more resentful and unwilling I will be. So how will it be then? This or that? Huh? Irritated and utterful hateful to the max.

Happy 1st month anniversary,my dearest bee

It's 4am in the morning now.

I remember that a month ago,we were having wine by the pool side and talking about our future together. What difference would it make if we get together now or later. After words of assurance,I asked to go to the toilet. You know,not that I really need to but I found myself blushing and feeling awkward. It was just an excuse to hide my growing excitement of what I thought was about to happen.

And as expected,I came back and found you holding your wine glass,standing by the pool. You looked like you are deep in thought. So holding my glass,I walked over and as usual,asked what you are thinking. You gave a smile,and said I knew it. I was afraid and excited,to know what you might be asking next. I didn't dare to ask further more,for the fear or taboo of speaking about it might simply spoil the chances of it coming true.

So here goes.
You said: So,taking a leap of faith,would you like to be my girlfriend? I remember seeing the grin on your face. I remember how I felt,so excited! Yet fearful at the same time. I asked... But... I didn't answer you directly,but you didn't realise. Eventually,I said alright then. I didn't say Yes. But you know what I meant. I never knew that a mere couple of hours where we sat by Bedok Reservoir,where we drifted into silence,where you suddenly told me the words
"I think I'm falling for you."
would simply turned into reality after. You know,that made me very very happy.

Well,I call that 'A moving moment'. Just like how I would have captured any other significant moment in memory,so this is just another scene. Even though you will never ever find out about this blog that I have,my dearest busy bumble bee,happy 1st month anniversary to us.
If I have my wine glass in hand like we did a month ago,I would make a toast.
To now and many more to come.

Need another place to rant. Totally. I'm like so crazy about study. Minutes seemed to slow down and hours are like dayssssssss. Checking out some O levels study tips,which are probably useless anyway because the motivation comes from I myself.

Checking out some online website that some geek created to help everyone else. If there's a need,I would probably print out the summary of the notes that I think are helpful though I am very against the idea of doing more harm to the planet. Seriously,killing more trees. Sad much :( Okay,I can't afford to be in a dilemma right at this moment. Damn,can my physics teacher quickly return me my file so that I can do my revision.

And damn,why the hell is cut-off points lower for science stream in JC? Belittling the arts meh? I totally love literature and well,not really humans but lanuages. Still,the world will eventually need a balance of both.

Only if we have more time.

We often wish that we could spend more time together with each other. By wishing so,it goes to show that our yearning for each other's presence is far greater,doesn't it?
-winks-

Tonight.

Tonight,
it's not about him. It's about you.

Because you don't use facebook or twitter,I guess the only way is write it here. Thank you so much for all the guidance,care and concern. Maybe you can consider a career switch to counselling? Haha! But nevertheless,it's quite unexpected but I'm very glad to hear that.

It just take a wee bit more for me to be moved to tears. LOL!
Goodnight,Sensei :)