I just went to see Kar Min's profile. And I see her brother taking a leap in his profile picture. It must have been inspired from his sister. Smart and kind family,from what I remember of. I will never ever forget this painful memory from the past,that I actually have the chance to be like them. Irina's in RJC. Kar Min's in Anglo-Chinese Independent. I will never forget,I did have a chance back then. Elizabeth and I chose a different road.

Both of us may have a chance to experience life much earlier than them,all the fun in the world like what a teenager should have. But I feel that in the long run,in life,what they had done is the best. To study first then enjoy life much much later. Then again,which is better?

To be in our shoes,or their shoes?

Experience life much earlier,playing like what a teenager should?

Or miss out on our teenage life,study and earn big bucks in future. Indulge in the fineties of life much much later? Pros and cons of both options.

I feel obliged to catch up,and prove. It feels like I have been hibernating. Wait till I show them the hidden talent inside me. You know,like a sudden surge of intelligence being awaken in me. Or is that a joke? Hahaha!

To anyone who's reading this,many comments and advises you feel that you should be giving me right now. You think it will help me,but have you lived my life and seen through my eyes?

No.

What you think you dished out for me is what you think works best for me. I can listen,but ultimately,the decision is mine to make. I hope you can respect that as well,as I have always respected those that you all have made.

Hang on,I'm orchestrating a beautiful piece of music.

Some times,I have another voice inside me that pacifies me. That's my inner soul,whom I shut out its voice in my everyday life. Until I finally felt so frustrated,then I hear its voice. And this time,its gently pacifiying me. Telling me that:

Everyone is unique,we all are destined for a different fate. They may have theirs,paved out in solid concrete road. Its clear,its straight. Mine may not be a straight road,it may not be stable,but at least,hidden surprises are there along the way to make life much much more interesting.

Delights in life...