Is it when one writes with such strong emotions,readers reading it can feel it too?
Or is it because the author meant a lot to the reader and hence,the reader conprehending every bit of emotion the author had wrote?

Just to grasp that bit of feeling of him being around,of course,I went to read. Then again,some times whatever he wrote was so true that I wish he was the one reliving all of it instead of me. As his interest does not lie in me,as clarified before,much this facade of cheerfulness,my heart's sinking a little. Bit by bit. Oh wells. Yes,I should move on. Even though he's got second thoughts,I dare not hope either. Just move on,and when he's told me that he still feel that a 'second chance' wouldn't work out,I wouldn't feel disappointed. And to be able to happily tell him,genuinely say:
It's okay!
with a bright smile. You know.

I did wonder what if he says its working out? I do fear,there's this insecurity in me,in being with him. I'm quite perssimistic in this area,especially. So,I still feel that the chances of being together are very slim.

Even if it does,I know I will be in bliss. And I know that my friends would be genuinely happy for me,because I have finally gotten what I want. Or deserve? = Efforts paid off.