Just feeling insecure,that's all.

It's not like I desperately need that status for affirmation. Sure,I can wait. It's just that his logical mind scares me at times,that I worry that I may be a disposable option to him. And the wait for year end. I don't know. I shouldn't be fearful of him running off,should I? I really hope not,I should be myself and keep all my options open.