There seemed to be so many things that I wanna get it off my mind lately. Perhaps it's the hormones,mood swings.
Lately,it seems like I have made many revelations,epiphany. Right now,I'm listening to this:
I'm enjoying it,partially it feels like an emo song. Another thing about this without the lyrics,is that Tick-Tock by Ien Chi has put an image to this music-video-less song. It has created an image of someone who's life is about to end and someone who urgently needs to confess of everything that he has ever done in his life.
But anyway,I have finished reading "Looking for Alaska". So many quotes provoked and form questions in my mind,which I feel that is in relations to reality. Not that solving them would make my life any better but understanding why things are like that may help.
The key here is not to eradicate but to pacify them.
"I go to seek the Great Perhaps"
What is this great perhaps in my life? Would things turn out differently if I proceed and seek this Great Perhaps,this big question mark? How would I deal with this question mark? Some people went to fortune-tellers,palm-reading etc to answer to this question. How true is that? What difference would it have made in my life?
"How will I ever get out of this Labyrinth?"
This 'Labyrinth of Suffering' was quoted as what many of us face in life. The never-ending suffering we went through everyday in life. By buddhism,sufferings are cause by desires. So in other words,perhaps the solution was to understand and pacify desires? In the book "Looking for Alaska",Alaska wrote down the answer was 'Straight and fast',which got Colonel and Pudge puzzled by these simples words she wrote. It was a great mystery,I suppose. Written for us readers to actually find out on our own. So my conclusion to this question:
Pacify/eliminate your desires.
Him
He was sorry for leading me on,a false sense of hope. But I think I'm even more sorry for myself to fall into this pit,this... Sort of helplessness. No emotions are logical to be explained,they are mere feelings. Even as I told xt and jq,repeating my story,they understood the state I'm in.
Because I told them,the only thing I can do in this situation was to shake my head and sigh,isn't it?
They couldn't agree more with me.
To wait isn't the right way because this will lead nowhere. Nor is moving on,because who am I moving on to? Moving on from what,to what? It's just like I'm just a person who's hanging in mid-air,with a rope on my neck and dying slowly.
Tell me,what do you want from me?
Some times,I just feel that people talk too much. Not that I have many things to talk,I think I'm better off as a listener. But some times,when there are things to be said,those are the main points that I want people to know and understand. Some times,they just talk too much about themselves that they forget that they need to stop and listen to others too.
Lately,it seems like I have made many revelations,epiphany. Right now,I'm listening to this:
I'm enjoying it,partially it feels like an emo song. Another thing about this without the lyrics,is that Tick-Tock by Ien Chi has put an image to this music-video-less song. It has created an image of someone who's life is about to end and someone who urgently needs to confess of everything that he has ever done in his life.
But anyway,I have finished reading "Looking for Alaska". So many quotes provoked and form questions in my mind,which I feel that is in relations to reality. Not that solving them would make my life any better but understanding why things are like that may help.
The key here is not to eradicate but to pacify them.
"I go to seek the Great Perhaps"
What is this great perhaps in my life? Would things turn out differently if I proceed and seek this Great Perhaps,this big question mark? How would I deal with this question mark? Some people went to fortune-tellers,palm-reading etc to answer to this question. How true is that? What difference would it have made in my life?
"How will I ever get out of this Labyrinth?"
This 'Labyrinth of Suffering' was quoted as what many of us face in life. The never-ending suffering we went through everyday in life. By buddhism,sufferings are cause by desires. So in other words,perhaps the solution was to understand and pacify desires? In the book "Looking for Alaska",Alaska wrote down the answer was 'Straight and fast',which got Colonel and Pudge puzzled by these simples words she wrote. It was a great mystery,I suppose. Written for us readers to actually find out on our own. So my conclusion to this question:
Pacify/eliminate your desires.
Him
He was sorry for leading me on,a false sense of hope. But I think I'm even more sorry for myself to fall into this pit,this... Sort of helplessness. No emotions are logical to be explained,they are mere feelings. Even as I told xt and jq,repeating my story,they understood the state I'm in.
Because I told them,the only thing I can do in this situation was to shake my head and sigh,isn't it?
They couldn't agree more with me.
To wait isn't the right way because this will lead nowhere. Nor is moving on,because who am I moving on to? Moving on from what,to what? It's just like I'm just a person who's hanging in mid-air,with a rope on my neck and dying slowly.
Tell me,what do you want from me?
Some times,I just feel that people talk too much. Not that I have many things to talk,I think I'm better off as a listener. But some times,when there are things to be said,those are the main points that I want people to know and understand. Some times,they just talk too much about themselves that they forget that they need to stop and listen to others too.
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